" HAPPY 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY BABY!!"

Happy 1 year anniversary baby boy. I did this post 30 mins before 12 as i wanna post in when the clock strikes 12 and the date is 18/06/11! A few pics before i do my dedications for you alrights?

Baby, do you remember all those pictures above? It was all taken during our 1st and 2nd month anniversary. When i was uploading these pictures, i look through all our pictures again. Lots and tons of memories flashed back. I remember how we first met at Ahling's birthday. Then we met at vivo again. You look after me when i am sick and fed me with medicine. You didn't slept well that night because you were worried for me and you fed me porridge as i have no strength to eat. I remember i quarreled many times with my dad cause i wanna ton and he don't allow. In the end, you are the one getting scolding each time. But you've never scolded me when my dad misunderstand you. I told you my past when i knew you from the start, cause i didn't want to hide anything from you. At first i thought you will not accept me after listening to my past. But you didn't, you accepted me for who i am, you didn't ask me to change and told me to be who i am. I know you always give in to me. Like when we go watch midnight movies at tiong, i wanna walk home. But you work for the whole day and you are very exhausted already, yet you still willing to walk home with me. I really enjoy having heart-to-heart talks with you when we are walking home. We always have endless topics to talk about.

These 1year isn't easy baby. we have been through tremendous ups and downs. There was once we quarreled till very badly and everything almost ended just like that. Thou it was a bad memory, but it is also a good thing isn't it? As we both understand each other more. The last night before you go in army, i couldn't sleep , but i didn't dare to wake you up. I looked at you and i realised i really can't do without you baby. You are already a part of my life. I hugged you tightly and cried cause i am afraid of letting you go, i dun want to leave you. Baby, i really appreciate it that you always think of me first than any other things. You always asked what i wanna eat, what i wanna do, where i wanna go. Sometimes i know you didn't really wanna go, but because of i said i wanna go, you kept quiet.

When i go out with classmates or friends, you will always worried for me. You will keep msg me to know what i am doing and ensure my safety. I know this post is just not long enough, but if you put everything i said to you this 1year, it is really alot baby. There is still alot more things i wanna say to you. But i dun wanna say it one shot at here. I wanna say it when we continue to walk home together and i wanna tell you every single day. I wanna tell you every single things that happens in my life till death. So i will never let your hands go till death alrights? I assure you my boy, my love for you is not just this, there is more baby. I really missed every night we talked on the phone before we get to bed. I hope when school reopens , we can continue doing this alrights? I am really sad you couldn't spend our 1year anni with me. But i know you have no choice as you got to work. You promised me you will pay it back to me one hors! :D I wanna go airport once again with you baby! How i really wished you can go overseas with me! All thanks to stupid army laa! :@

Alrights! i shall end here , I hope you enjoy reading this space that i specially post for you. Once again, HAPPY 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY NICHOLAS SKJ! My 18th's baby boy. ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

"You never know what you have until you lose it, and once you lose it, you can never get it back. "

Using my iphone to update my blog. Its 8 o'clock now and i am freaking not asleep! :/ i am crazy already. Got tution ltr in the evening 5/6? Then after tution i wanna go find bby! ): i really miss him. Wondering how come i can go find him right? Cause he didn't go army!!! He kanna defer by the army ppl saying due to his medical conditions, he have to wait for another 3months. Haha. This is so stupid, i even cried in the train and worried for him! Did nothing much today, sleep > wakeup > met bby at my hse for dinner > went home > watch tv > do homework > watch videos and now here blogging! (: boring huh my life? No choice, school reopens got exams lehs! Mummy keep nagging me to study... Study... Study... Maths can seriously kill your brain cells okay! Haha. I am crapping already. Shall head to bed now! Stay tune for my next post alrights? (: comment or ask me anything at my Formspring and follow me at twitter @18th_love okays? (: love you guys!

" DAY 1: The first day you left me.


Its 2.43am now and i am not asleep! I think i am becoming like a owl that sleeps in the day and wakes up at night. Haha. Well, today is my boy first day in army. I really wanna know how is he now. Is he doing fine? Is he able to sleep? He msg me today telling me to call him once i wake up and he got a good news to tell me. But when i called him, he didn't ans my calls nor reply my msges. I am really worried for him! :'( I wanna listen to his voice and see him now. Baby uhs baby.. Please sms me A.S.A.P can?! I promised you to blog every night to let you know what i am doing every single day. Despite i am doing the same things everyday, i will still blog to let you see. Its my promise to you alrights? (: Today i am gonna blog about 7th June, my day with my boy.

Woke up > bathe > makeup > trained down to dhoby ghaut to meet my boy. Had lunch at 'Just Acia'. Had ice cream there too! ^^ *hungreeey* Got to maintain! Growing fatter each day. Kill me please... Okay, back to where i stop. After eating, we went to plaza sing to make a new couple rings as i lost mine in school. -.- Bought our new rings and we went to the arcade to take neoprints. Its my first time taking neoprints with him. Was damn happy at first till the stupid machine pissed me off. I took 8 shots with bby and they only let us choose 2 shots. WTF. Then headed to punggol mall and walk around. Took pictures in the train. Damn epic i swear, bby keep making me laugh. I really miss him.

I rmb baby say must edit his unglam pics or he will kill me! NAH!!! i edit liaos. Nice right? hehe. There is more photos! I had a hard time uploading these pics cause blogger kept failing me. -.-

Bought a facial wash, 2 nail polish, packets of masks, bby paid for everything. Thank you sooo sooo much baby! Walked till 9plus, called leong (bby working friend) up and asked if he wanna go play pool. Then he agreed! So we called Joe & Evon (bby working friends also) and ask them if they wanna join, surprisingly they also wanna! (: There is more pictures coming up!

Trained down to lavender and quickly go toilet with bby. Both of us were super urgent at punggol already yet didn't say out till we reach lavender then we both say out. Funny max! Finish playing pool, wanted to go eat supper. But in the end someone suggested to go sheesha, so we headed to sheesha instead of prata shop. Stayed till 3am and Joe cab us back to bby's house to take money then cab back to my house. Thats all for the day! :D

Gonna watch show at funshion till i fall asleep. I really miss baby like crazy. ): Will blog again tmr. Ask me anything at Formspring and follow me at Twitter @18th_love alrights? (: bye!