"NEVER PRETEND TO BE ALRIGHT EVEN IF IT HURTS " ;

weeeeee !! (: backkk to posting sehhs . ;DDD lauqhs . today din qo out uhhs ,, cause of smth ,, dun wish to elaborate it anymore . (: ahlinq ' bitchy went overseas liaos . missdie her {!} stupid benben still stuck at overseas mai come back uhhs !! =.= i wanna my present luhs dey {!} ask him suck my lanjiao uhhs !! lauqhs ; paiseh , i no lanjiao . -.- shld be ask him qo suck his own lanjiao !! stupid him ! exams finish still dun wan come back !! D: asshole ! @#$%&*&%$#@ lawl ; thinkinq wanna qo find wawa ornot lehs ,, but scare laobei will kp sia . -.- aiyo sianz ~ wondering why qood thinqs won't repeat but only bad thinqs thn will repeat . just like in a RELATIONSHIP uhhs . ppl breaak patch break patch ,, and they will always say ,, i am tired of all these ,, history is just repeatinq itself . but why isn't qood memories repeating itself ? lols , just smth that been thinkinq so lonq ? lawl ; kristin is abit sotpluq today maybe ? =.= LMAO !

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PS :/ i am afraid ,, i have fallen for you . my feelinqs are so confused now . siqhs . wanna find smth to just simply numb myself up . you told me before ,, if my heart is totally beinq locked up ,, means it is over for me . but now ,, i still have a chance to turn back ,, so maybe i shld just let qo of the past and walk towards you ? i dunno . time will tell perhaps ? i felt so relieved when i am with you that day . it is just another feelinq i am waitinq for ? the will that is makinq me qivinq up and walk towards you ? i really enjoyed myself that day ,, thanks .

"AT LEAST AT THIS MOMENT , I REALLY THOUGHT OF LETTING GO OF YOU" ;

hellos earthlinqs ! (: i am back !! (: i think there is abt a week ever since my last post ? o.o lawl ; i am supa tired manxzxzxz ! have not been sleepinq well ever since holiday started . ): been qoinq out to ton and such ... =.= shall post abt 2 days stuffs . (:

27 march 2010 ,

after sch ,, went to tionq baruh with minxuan & ruhui for lunch ,, had lonq john {!} *yummy* lauqhs ; thn walked around tionq and do bo thn headed home ... thn waited for wawa to finish work thn i qo bathe and prepare . (: after that ,, headed down to tionq aqn ,, met her at tionq MRT platform ,, thn went to toilet to chanqe and make up . (: lauqhs ; thn headed to arcade to find mark . :B reached arcade ,, saw mark and his fren darren ,, went over say hi thn went out with wawa to smoke . (: called mark up ,, thn asked him to come out find us . :> chatted while smokinq . after that went to prize staqe to catch bearbear with wawa while mark and darren waited outside . :B i swear the staffs there are supa nice {!} :DDD cauqht the 2 domo and some other toys . (: thn headed to playqround to slack ,, thn went to 7 eleven to buy poker and back to playqround . :> slack ,, play poker ,, smoke ,, jokejoke ... :D some unpleasant thinqs happened in between and i sat at the slide alone while the rest were at the pavillion . mark came over and chatted with me . had a heart to heart talk with him ,, i find him supa nice seriously . he gave me lots of advice that make me think throuqh alot . (: thn went back to join wawa and darren ... play daiti ,, was supa funny manzxzxzxz ! ;DDD thn mark helped wawa massage till she orhorh . -.- chatted with mark and darren ,, totally retarded luhs ! :> they were doinq maqic tricks that failed alot of tyms . -.- lmao ; thn 5am ,, darren went home ,, left me and mark .. so we chatted aqn ... :B lauqhs . he is a bully manxzxzxz {!} i am 14 , not 12 ! lauqhs ! and he wrack my hand till red and i was tryinq to pinch him , but hand toooo short , couldn't reach ! hahs ; thn 6am called wawa wake up ,, said bye to mark and went off to MRT and went home !!! :DDD

28 may 2010 ,

slept till 11.30 ,, thn shitinq called me up to bathe and qo out aqn . =.= tired die meeee ! x.x went to queenstown to meet my both "tinqs" and we headed to wawa's workinq place . (: slack and do bo there ... thn some thinqs happened . totally retarded ,, so hiewlan it lorhs . (: thn both "tinqs" went off and i waited for wawa to finish work thn went to boonkenq . (: had my dinner thr with wawa ,, zhuzhu ,, jonathan ,, kim huat and wawa's daddy . :B after eatinq ,, headed to wawa's house slack and thn 10 plus qo home . (: watch tv till 1am plus thn qo orhorh . (:

29 may 2010 ,

didn't went out today ,, stayed at home and had my beauty sleep (: nth much liaos . baibai ! (:

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PS :/ seriously thouqht of wat mark had said to me ,, he was riqht ... you've already start to move on and i am still hanqinq on to the past . wat i am doinq now is just wastinq of my time ? cause i know ,, you will never ever come back to me . whenever i drop tears for you ,, you are happy with her and you won't care for me anymore . thinqs are soooo different already . in life ,, there is a start ,, there is also an end . everythinq is predicted . life is borinq ,, and love is one of the thinq that makes it interestinq . i am waitinq for you now ,, if i really qot you back one day ,, thinqs will never be the same anymore also . if i didn't qet you back ,, all the waitinq will be wasted . wat for must i torture myself and clinq onto somethinq that i will never qet it back anymore ? when i am talkinq to mark that day ,, i really find that everythinq that he tells me ,, seems to be what the words i am lookinq for . the reasons for me to qive up on you . that day ,, was the first time ,, i really thouqht of lettinq you qo and i really manaqe to did it once . thanks alot mark ,, really had a qreat time talkinq with you ! perhaps it is time to say qoodbye now ...

" DID YOU REALLY CHANGED OR NOT ? " ;

This is A SPECIAL post for you ... well ,, i know you would be readinq this post cause i'd asked you to . boy ,, have you chanqed or not ? i am not sure is it my own quessings or wat ... i said that you have chanqed was because the way that you talked to me earlier ? was really so different from the past . last tym , you won't use such tones and attitude at me . you won't use words like "fuck" ,, "kp" ,, at me ... is it because the status i am in your heart is way different now ,, that is whyes you would used such words and spoke to me in such attitude ? i won't say if those thinqs i have posted is abt you or not . maybe your quessinq is riqht ? or wronq ? i don't know ,, won't wanna know ,, won't say it either ... you know ,, when you spoke to me the first few sentence ,, i was very happy ... but slowly ,, tears starts to drop ,, cause you are not the quy that i used to love . you really chanqed . the only thinq that you didn't chanqed was you always like to keep thinqs to yourself . and even i wanna know it badly , you would rather keep it to yourself ... and kept torturinq me like nobody business uhhs . each time tellinq me stuffs abt you and your qirlf ?! if you really read my post carefully ,, you would know wat i have posted and won't be tellinq me all these ... you really like hurtinq me so much uhhs ?? seeinq me so hurt and you are really happy is it ? whyes ?? you are the first quy that made me fall so deeply in love with ... but whyes ... whyes must it also be you that made me fell hurt badly also !! you know wat ?! i am really tired of all this cryinq and stuffs ... i only want the past old you to be back ... i know qettinq you back is already impossible ,, but i am still waitinq ,, hanqinq on ,, whyes must you crush all my hopes ?? i just want you to at least concern abt me ,, at least look at me once ,, chat with me nicely like the past ... but not hurt me pls ... i seriously dun wish to let qo ... just let me continue lovinq you just like that would you ? dun crush all my hopes pls ... i just want the old you ... tears just kept flowinq when i am typinq this post ... seeinq your bloq the first time , tears also kept flowinq ... how many times had you made me drop tears for you ? don't hurt me like how you did anymore would you ? siqhs ..

" EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON " ;

well ,, it is 1am plus noaz and i am still not qettinq my butt onto my bed !! lauqhs ; it is wawa's birthday now . (:

happy bithday to you.

happy birthday to you.

happy birthday to jamie.

happy birthday to you !

*claps claps*

lmao ; see i so qood uhhs ! :D sinq birthday sonq for you and wish you happy birthday at 12 . (: okayy nothinq much to post lers ,, mood isn't that qood noaz . baibai ; mua

xoxo,

kristin . (:

every stories had an end . but in life , every end is just a new beqinninq .


if you love somone , put their name in a circle instead of heart .
because hearts can break , while circle can qo on forever .


no one can promise that they will never hurt you , because at
some point of life , they will .


the real promise is if the time you spent toqether will be worth the pain in the end .



" MOVING ON IS SO SIMPLE , IT'S WAT YOU LEAVE BEHIDE THAT MAKES IT SO DIFFICULT " ;

hellos readers !! :)) ytd went out with wawa ,, zhuzhu ,, jonathan ,, wawa's mummy and their younqest sister . :> i swear the sister was really very cuteeeeeee !! :D lauqhs ; MRT-ed down to boonkenq to meet wawa & co ... thn walked to the temple somewhere at boonkenq . the auntie was so freakinq xialan manzxzxz ! ._. me ,, zhuzhu and wawa were wearinq hot pants & one normal T-shirt . the auntie called all of us over and said the 3 of us can't qo in . cause we are wearinq too exposed . -.- fuck die her seriously .! because of her words , make us all so hot & pissed off .. so bobian , the 3 of us stayed outside ,, while wawa's mum qo in with jonathan . -.- after that BUS-ed down to lavender and do some stuffs thn qo makan . :> after that BUS-ed back to boonkenq qo wawa hse slack . :> wawa supa disgustinq can ?! keep tellinq us abt her shit . not interested lurhhs ! so disgustinq ! =.= thn sit awhile jiu pei her daddy qo makan aqain . -.- after that cab-ed home ... thats all ! :> baibai ; mua ;

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PS :/ i never hated you for not lovinq me , but i hated you for makinq me fall for you even more each time when i am tryinq to let you qo . my friends tell me to let qo or at least try , but wat do i do when i start to cry ? i am fiqhtinq back emotions that i never fouqht before . each time i rest on my pillow , i would let my tears flow and kept askinq myself , whyes can't i just let qo ?! i know i have said qoodbye so many times before , but all roads lead me back to you . but now , this qoodbye that you have said really means we are over . i still love you , and i probably will love you for a very lonq time ... like wat others said , we may want to forqet someone we loved , but we just can't do it . the love that you qave me , could never be forqotten , no matter how hard i tried it will always be there ... FOREVER ... hope that fate will smile upon us , and we miqht qet to see each other someday ... AGAIN ....

"ALL I WANT IS TO BE HAPPY" ;

okayy , shall do a short post . qoinq to buqis with terris dear , cherie baby and a group of boys . :> lauqhs ; maybe i am more suitable to such life ? i dunno uhhs . all i know is i am gonna enjoy myself and be crazy like last tym ! ;D hope i can just put him down for that moment barhs . qotta qo bathe and prepare . :)) endinq here ! :> baibai ; mua ;

taken in sch today (:


taken at bus-stop when headinq home after cca (:



taken at studio with sheryl durinq cca breaks (:

taken at the bus-stop heading hom after cca (:

summer sissy and me (:

*taken at buqis*

" SOME OF US THINK HOLDING ON MAKES US STRONG , BUT SOMETIMES IT IS LETTING GO" ;

peek-a-boo {!} (: lauqhs ; still very childish uhhs me . x.x lmao ; today don't think qoinq out already uhhs . :x intended to qo find friends at pasir ris , but i lost my elink and daddy did not qive me money uhhs !!! ): so most probably stayinq at home and be a qood qirl . (: nothinq much to post , so shall end post here :> will do the post abt my birthday ders thinqs another day uhhs . (: tyvm ; byebye ; mua !

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PS :/ after i met you , i finally understand what true love is . you were the one that showed me what true love is . true love is when i shed a tear and still wants for you . true love is when you iqnores me , and i still love you . true love is when you qot another qirl and i still smile to you , tellinq you " i am happy for you , last lonq ." , which all i really do is cry ... and cry ... my mind tells me to qive up , but my heart won't let me . which should i listen to ? i don't understand , why we could click so well but yet we are not tqt ? i wish i had the quts to walk away and forqet about wat we had been throuqh ... but i can't ... sometimes i would just pretend that i am alriqht because when everybody thinks i am fine , i will forqet a while that i am actually not . i tried hard to move on , i tried to keep myself occupy with stuffs . but no matter what i do , i still think of you ... you would never know how much you hurt me this time . you used to tell me sorry , now you don't . you don't even care anymore ...

"TIRED OF TRYING , TIRED OF CRYING , TIRED OF EVERYTHING" ;

hey readers !! i am backkk to post uhhs !!! (: yes yes , it had been few weeks and i have not posted abt my birthday celebration stuffs . x.x i know ... i know ... but i am seriously busy marhhs . *pout face* qimme some time lurhhs . (: when i free i will post abt it alriqhts ? (: dun so qan chionq for photos luhs ! <: *shyshy* well ... nothinq much to say abt sch today , everday almost the same old thinq uhhs . >: excited abt june holidays !!! bet lots of you quys are equally excited as me uhhs and even wish that it comes faster also riqht ? :x lauqhs ; somethinqs happen last niqht ... don't wish to elaborate much uhhs . just thouqht that wat exactly is the definations of friends ? >: i dun like the way when you shouted at me ... i am so disappointed in you seriously . i thouqht you would be different cause you seems different . but you are not , i am so wrong of you ... hope time will help to heal everythinq barhs . ): i am speechless seriously . why can't you just close one eyes and stoop pursuinq this questions ? arqhhhhhh ! irritated ; piss off ! i dun feel qood ! haish ~ bye ...

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PS:/ lots and lots of thinqs to say ... quess all those unspoken words that are left in my heart are all beinq said out ? i have no reqrets sayinq all this out , cause i know very clearly that wat i have done , was never wronq . in this particular relationship , i have learnt that , holdinq someone's hand and fallinq in love has a difference . it is true that sometimes kisses doesn't mean somethinqs . promises could also be broken as quickly as they are made and qoodbyes could be a forever ?

"IT'S SO HARD TO PRETEND NOT TO LOVE A PERSON WHEN YOU REALLY DO"

heyyo !!! ;D i am back to post uhhs ! ;> lauqhs . currently stayinq at home , usinq lappy to online settle some stuffs and came to bloq to do a quick post (: havinq a headche when i woke up today morninq , lazy to qo out uhhs . x.x but today is cherie babyyy's birthday ! ;> lauqhs ; wish her a happy birthday uhhs ! *insert loads hearts* well ... well ... lets see , we had know each other cominq a year i quess ? althouqh we didn't really qo throuqh thick , but we still qo throuqh thin isn't it ? (: these few weeks and days , been meetinq up alot ? lawl ; chatted alot , went to see boys tqt , joke around , slack .... loads and tons of thinq yea ? (: ytd somethinqs happened and i wasn't in a qood mood , so shouted at you ... but you wasn't mad at me . thanks babyy ! ;> lovedieyous ! shall enjoy ourselves today alot alriqhts ? (: shall post last weeks stuffs aqn another day . and overdue pics that didn't manaqe to post due to lappy's fault ! *humph* LOL !!! okayy shall end post here . qott to qo pom pom and qo out liaos ! ;) seeya ; mua ! miss me uhhhs ! ;D

SPECIALLY FOR YOU "FAILURES" ;

HOHOHO ! you shld be honoured that i specially post for you ehhs ! ;D lauqhs ; let me quess uhhs . if i not wronq , you shld be from FMSS and is upper sec ders riqht ? o.o hmmms , dun understand ehhs ... study in FMSS yet do thinqs that idiot does ? wonderinq how you qet into FMSS ders uhhs ? -.- qrow up luhs ! what year liaos ? still so childish , come to my bloq and bark like a doq ? =.= lmao ; bet your mum never teach you , so let me this xmm come and tell you bahs ! (: no one is perfect in this world uhhs . if you are that chio or shuaii that you are so perfect , totally flawless , thn comment me all you wants and i won't bother . if you are a qirl , don't tell me you won't make up also uhhs ? or maybe you don't even know how to ? lmao ! thn i shall teach you uhhs ! =/ dumb ! oops ! ;D if you are a boy , dun xiasuay yourself and be a doq that bark but don't bite . useless ! ooops aqn ! ;D come on , who won't look different with make up ? -.- i know... i know... i look more chio marhhs . lawl ; dun jealous . (: i know you're uqly , but i believe oso qot ppl will like you ders luhs ! just that your partner will be as uqly as you only lorhs ! -.- ooopsssss ; and dun come xialan with my frens . who they are, are none of your business . you want , come xialan me enouqh . :> put your name down the next time when you taq , so that i know your name and won't call you failure marhhs . it doesn't sound nice . (: dun criticise yourself like that luhs ! *althouqh it is the fact* LOL ! thats all ! byebye ; mua !