ITS IRONIC HOW THE MOMENT I REALISED, I LOVED HIM IS THE MOMENT HE BROKE MY HEART

i am back to post ! (: well , i promised to update abt last week stuffs . so here it qoes ...

16/04/10
after school , went home to bathe & prepare , thn MRT-ed down to buqis to find summer sissy (: met her , went to somewhere to smoke . suay suay kanna cauqht by police . x.x lucky only warninq . lauqhs; thn went off to buqis street and shoppinq ! (: bouqht alot new clothes & baqs . woots; after shoppinq , went to buqis junction ders car park and smoke smoke , chat chat & took photos . :> after that went to buqis junction to shop aqn ; lauqhs ! thn around 9 plus , sissy qott to qo off lers , so she send me off to MRT and she take bus home . (: thanks sissy ! (: lovedieyous ! :D

17/04/10
well , today went back to sch for stupid cca aqn . ._. i am super tired uhs ! saturday also couldn't qet a proper rest zzz . but teacher very qood uhs , sponser $15 dollars to buy us drinks . (: after cca , went to the bus-stop with sheryl & co to take bus home (:while waitinq for bus , took some pics aqn ;shy in between breaks also took some pics ;haas . :> reached home , rest awhile thn daddy came home . x.x of course , he started naqqinq at me aqn . ._. after that , went to bathe and prepare . around 6 or 7pm lyk that MRT-ed down to pasir ris to janice's chalet . (: pasir ris > cab to downtown > meet wawa & co > buy thinqs at downtown > janice's chalet . (: lawl; well nothinq much to say about th chalet ... took some pics , but at janice's camera and wawa's phone . so qot to wait for janice to upload and meet wawa thn can i can upload those photos . (: thats all ! (:

18/04/10
reached home from outside , rest awhile thn headed to library and meet minxuan & co to study . (: met sheng ge at the library , walked over and said hellos to him . :> i am beinq friendly and kind to walk over and say hellos despite that i am sooo tired ! and it means i am qood alriqhts ! lauqhs; after that , daddy called up and start to naq for nothinq ... alamak ! ._. after studyinq , BUS-ed home , bathe and SLEEP !!!

23/04/10
nothinq much happen in sch today , qot back my enqlish test . quess what ?! i did major well ! (: woots; happydie me manzxzxz ! :DDD headed home straiqht after sch . (: tomorrow is my birthday ! (: mummy open one small steamboat at home (: invited some classmates and celebrate tqt ... (: thn at niqht qoinq out with wawa & co . (: shall end my post here . buibui; mua !

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PS: it kills me to know you are online and you won't talk to me . i just wish that you could notice that , with every look i qive , it simply means i care about you . could still remember the times we chatted on the phone every single niqht , those are the times i really misses ... now , you and i are just a memories . but you and her are reality . :( by tellinq others that we were just friends , were the hardest thinq i ever had to do ! all i want is you to hold my hand and walk the world mith me , is that very difficult ? you will never knows how upset and miserable you made me feels ... what hurt me the most was you qettinq over me so easily . knowinq you havinq a qirlf now , was the worst qift i ever received . boy , am i realy that easily beinq forgotten ? all the memories ? all the jokes & lauqhters we had ? all the thinq we had shared ? have you really forqotten all this ? :( why are you hurtinq me like this ? everytime i think of you , tears still starts to drop . you have never leave my heart ... not even a single step .

A boring day ...

hellos stalkers ! (: sorry for not postinq for such a lonq time ! x.x been kinda busy with all my tests . lauqhs . hmmms , well do a proper post soon when i am free (: will post up pics of janice chalet and such another time (: this saturday my birthday ehhs ! (: lauqhs . FINALLY !!! the day i waited so lonq ! i am qoinq to be 14 ! :D lauqhs; okayy CCITP lesson end lers , qot to qo back class for science lers . ;x buai; mua !

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i miss you ....

WHATEVER YOU SAY IN TH FUTURE, MY HEART WILL NEVER SAY "NO" ;

hmmms , school is kinda fun today i quess ? lauqh; min xuan & co went for camp ... i was dam bored , so went to sit with clara & co . (: tellinq them alot of stories; lauqhs . they will listeninq attentively to me tellinq my qrandmother stories. ahaha (: English teacher didn't come today as she qot course . yeeps ! so a relief teacher came in . i swear she is major funny manzxzxz . ;D th boys kept saying the word fuck , and instead of qettinq a bookinq or wat , th teacher made them shout fuck 10times . -.- lawl; after school qo home orhorh & do bo . think thats all for today . (: maybe meetinq wawa on friday to buqis to buy clothes . (:

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PS : thinqs that we said , promises that we made , memories that we shared , are so hard to forqet . each time i am with you , i just pray that th sun wouldn't set , as i don't wanna forqet .everytime i hear or see your name , it breaks my heart . i wish i could still make you see how much you mean to me , but everythinq is too late i quess ? i know it is stupid of me to keep tryinq to hold onto somethinq that it will never come back . to th world , you may be one person . but to me , you may be th whole entire world . i miss how you made me feel extraordinary . keeping a relationshp is never a easy job , but a really hard thinq . but we promised to work it out isn't it ? i still love you with all th little pieces of my heart that you break . you had qiven me th best kind of love that wakens my soul and burn fire in my heart . i still miss you !

YOU'RE TH ONLY REASON FOR ME TO CONTINUE TO BREATHE ON;

heyy peeps ! (: back to post ! lauqhs; *shy* had been thinkinq wanna chanqe bloq link soon . some bo liaos ppl keep qoinq to petrina's bloq to link to my bloq and view ----- . uhuh , you know who you quys are . (: some ppl just can't keep secrets and have a fcukinq BIG MOUTH ! =.= not only that , alot ppl keep spreadinq my blog link around . maybe the guest and passersby in my bloq are them ? just won't qrow up ehs ? how old liaos ? still wanna be so childish uhs ? study in fairfield yet so uncivilised . tsktsktsk ! -.- qet a life ppl ! enjoys spamminq ppl's bloq then qo create your own bloq and enjoy spamminq it lurhhs ? don't come my bloq here and bark like a mad doq . tyvm ! (: well ... well ... well ... today had a small conflict with euqene because of some small thinqs ? the reason i am so mad is not mainly because he make spoil my hp strap . actually is because of friendship problems uhs . the 4 of us are driftinq so much . ruhui and ching lin become like strangers , me and min xuan are also driftinq because of someone . you know who you are . (: seriously sch's life is freakinq me out ! relationship is already one problem , now another friendship problems , what is next ? *sighs*

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PS : if i were blue , you be there for me and whisper to my ears thats okay . you will always stand by my side and let me hold you tiqht . have you been thinkinq of me ? i really wish you can huq me tiqhtly aqn . and this time , i swear i won't allow you to let qo of me anymore . could still rmb th promises we made to one another . you were th made me believe that love does exists in this world . you were th one that made me felt how sweet love was . you were th one that let me see love . we made a wish , one day th first person that i see when i woke up will be you . day by day , hopinq the day will come , but it didn't . i am still waitinq , i will wait ... cause i believe , i believe th day that i am hopinq , deinately will come . i am still not wanting to let you qo . sighs .

09 APRIL 2010
That day after school , went home quickly to bathe & prepare thn cab down to buqis to find wawa . qott zhuzhu , shirley and nicole also (: went to buy my tonque stud thn shop shop around , bouqht a new pair of hiqh heels . kawaii neiis ;lauqhs . thn smoke smoke & saw tian chi , passed him a stick of ciq thn continue shoppinq . bouqht some new clothings & went to the toilet to chanqe . lawl; after that say byebyes to shirley & nicole thn bus-ed down to petir to find raymond they all . (; slacked , chit chat , smoke smoke thn walk to the mall . (: somethinq happened subsequently ... dun wish to elaborate it , just 2 words to describe it "bo liaos" . how old already still so childish ? qet a life and qrow up please ? -.- don't be a doq that only barks and don't have the quts to bite . -.- walked around the mall with zhuzhu aimlessly while others chattinq and smokinq outside . lauqhs; saw samantha sissy outside MAC . woosh ! so lonq never see her lers ! (; chat with her for awhile thn went out to meet the rest . <: alriqhts , time for photo spamminqs ! (; alrights ! time for bed . will bloq about 10 april qo back for traininq ders photos and stuffs next time . qoodniqhts ! muackies ! :-*

PS : had you been seeinq the thinq i've posted ? do you know how much i really misses you each day ? I could fill a thousand paqes tellinq you how I felt and still you would not understand . my heart shatters as it hits the qround . love is like an eternal flame . once it is lit , it will continue to burn for all the time . love isn't blind , it just seees what matters . love is a moment that last forever . living in a life without you , just wouldn't be th same .

okayy i am back to post ! (: been busy these few days . x.x lots of tests and qot to stay back after sch for extra lessons etc ... had my NAFA on tuesday & wednesday , two words to describe , "dead beat" ! ;x i am wonderinq , why can't we have swimminq test instead of runninq ? swimminq is much more easier and fun (: lauqhs; maybe meetinq wawa and ahlinq after school on friday to go to buqis to shop shop (: shall end here , qott to qet back to face my boring books . byeeeeeeeee ; mua (;

PS/ Thinqs are really chanqinq so quickly , so are you .
i never wanna let you qo . you were the one that
let qo of me first . where are the promises that you
had qiven me ? you qave me hopes in love aqain but
at the same time , you made me fall badly once aqain.
each time i passes by the polyclinic , i will rmb the
time when i was sick and you brouqht me there to see
doctor . the first qift you qave me was a couple bear,
that has "I LOVE YOU" on it . i didn''t throw it away,
i am still huqqinq it every niqht cause i am missinq
you badly ! i didn't have the quts to talk to you
anymore .

02 , April , 2010 , friday

went-ed to meet wawa & ahlinq durinq friday at cck > train to petir to find wawa's fren , slacked a while > walk-ed to ten mile lan shop , slacked , chat and smoke smoke . (: then bitchy ders frens came , forqotten their names . x.x laughs . then headed down to west coast ders mac to eat .(: after eatinq , walk-ed to the beach to chat and smoke smoke aqain . ;x lawl . had a heart to heart chat with mye bitchy , enjoy talking to her . lovedie her manxzxzxz! <3> lawl; dunno what happen , feelinq kind of uncomfortable . :( so bitchy accompany me to wait for cab and we chatted while waitinq for cab . (: chatted for very long , finally there's cab ! -.- laughs; board up the cab and said goodbye & thank bitchy for taking care for me ! ^^ reach home , bathe , replied bitchy's msg thn toh liaos ! =X enjoyed myself alot that day , had loads & tons of fun and laughters ;D

P.S/ Is this the life i am suppose to live on? a life that is without you by my side? I am sill unable to forqet the days , the memories , the moments , i spent and had with you. Without you by my side, i feel so lonely and miserable. Missinq the days we chatted on phone every night. It is not you that is difficult to forget, but the memories we had toqether. forgettinq you is like forqetting someone i never met. It is not a easy job. Am i able to stand up once aqain?